Benji's Adventure

I’m arrived, and now i can’t go on internet exept the week end… it sucks…. otherwise, one good and one bad point : the good one is that i love my boarding scool, and the people in here.

The bad one is i want to die, more than ever, and i’m in love with a straight friend i know since 2 days (i guess i’m in love ^^’ i’m getting to fastly attached to people…)

Anyway, i’ll have my laptop tomorrow so i’ll post from my room every week end…

Wanna see my room ???

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Sorry I haven’t posted in a while because lots of sutff happend.

I’m still waiting for The Boy of my life, but some other things got better ^^

I’m now accepted in a boarding school in Lyon, and its quite great even if i’ll miss my friends and  family, i dunno…

Anyway in 5 days more stuff happend than in the last 2 month oO’

I went in lyon, saw the school, and my room wich is BIG, and i’ll post some pics of it when i’ll be in there, in a few days.

Big change : I won’t be able to have my laptop in the week (from monday to friday), but i’ll go check my mails every night on their crappy computers ^^and hopefully on my future Iphone (Wooohooo )…

So, i’ll post on my blog only on the week-ends, and i hope i’ll show you pics of the city, wich is absolutely beautiful

By the  way, Clint Eastwood will be there next week for a movie stuff, and i’ll go to see him

And another great new, i made my first film, wich maybe will be published in some places so i’m dead happy about that, i’ll post it on YouTube soon

Awww i found those pics sooo cuuuute its from a video game naed “little big planet” i think

That’s all for today :p i gotta prepare my luggage

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Ha ! Sorry guys, but these times i got no inspiration at ALL !!!!

Beside that, i wrote more and more poems, my last one, in english i even called {Roses of Death}, and i’m proud of it

By the way, i may have found the PERFECT boarding school, in the middle of Lyon,and i’d LOVE to go there

I’ll have an answer soon Oh and i got new medicines, and i think those works, cause sometime i feel … what i think is close to hapiness ^o^

Oh, and since long time but especially a week, i hear a lot of Eels, and they’re doing some great great music… <3

I still need a boyfriend beside that,sometime i could care for, and who would do the same… I miss boys ^^’

Plus, i haven’t been in school of the week, i plan to go back monday, wich would be a good start. I wanna see that cute boy again ^o^… And… i miss you guys… it’s when i write this post, i realize how much i love doing it… I definitely would enjoy finish the scripts i’m writing…

Anyway

And YES when i write this, it is 4:08am >.<

Haha, school started 2 weeks ago, and i still don’t know half of my class >.< But there is an awesome cute boy yaaaay

Well he must be straight, but yay anyway ^^

And i still haven’t been in cinema in september o_O

And i sleep 2 hours a night since a week and i FEEL WOOOOOORSE !!!!!!!

Woaw i’m feeling so weird right now… i guess its because i’m tired xD

This i s an awesome poem we studied in english class, i love it

The Lesson Of The Moth

By Don Marquis, in “archy and mehitabel,” 1927

i was talking to a moth

the other evening
he was trying to break into
an electric light bulb
and fry himself on the wires

why do you fellows
pull this stunt i asked him
because it is the conventional
thing for moths or why
if that had been an uncovered
candle instead of an electric
light bulb you would
now be a small unsightly cinder
have you no sense

plenty of it he answered
but at times we get tired
of using it
we get bored with the routine
and crave beauty
and excitement
fire is beautiful
and we know that if we get
too close it will kill us
but what does that matter
it is better to be happy
for a moment
and be burned up with beauty
than to live a long time
and be bored all the while
so we wad all our life up
into one little roll
and then we shoot the roll
that is what life is for
it is better to be a part of beauty
for one instant and then cease to
exist than to exist forever
and never be a part of beauty
our attitude toward life
is come easy go easy
we are like human beings
used to be before they became
too civilized to enjoy themselves

and before i could argue him
out of his philosophy
he went and immolated himself
on a patent cigar lighter
i do not agree with him
myself i would rather have
half the happiness and twice
the longevity

but at the same time i wish
there was something i wanted
as badly as he wanted to fry himself

archy

At first, thank for all who seems concerned about my state

Then i wanted to show yo this… i just cann’t wait, the trailer makes me feel so weird ^^