Hi . Sorry if i haven’t been online much lately, i’m feeling REALLY down atm. I’m quitting school, and everything in my life is falling appart. And i want to end all of it. it’s scary, though. Come what may, anyway.

I’m considering making some travel to get some air, you know… I may go to Deutschland, or  UK …
Even if i know that its not gonna solve any of my problems ><

Anyway. I’m in Marseille now, for the week, and i’m probably going back home in Paris soon. I’m currently reading  the Time Traveler’s Wife, and i began to watch a new serie : The Vampire Diaries ^^

Oh, and i  made some coloured crepes ^^ First time i put food coloring in crepes xD and the result was quite… surprising ^^

I took a picture to show you my “blue crepes”, among other xD

See you soon !!!

Hey !!! Long time no post ^^

I’m going to Enniskilen, Ireland for 10 days Friday, and i must say i can’t wait ^^ I’ll be in a host family

Afterwards i’ll stop my studies for now, and go back to paris, and we’ll see what happens then. Come what may. :/

Thats all about me for now (that i can tell you ^^-) , except maybe the fact that i’m feeling down…

Oh, and go watch Mr Nobody !!! <3

This week, i’m reading the 39 Clues n°6, and The Time Traveler’s Wife.

See you !! <3

]]> http://benji.milkboys.org/2010/02/02/mr-nobody/feed/ 1 http://benji.milkboys.org/2010/01/17/bright-starf/ http://benji.milkboys.org/2010/01/17/bright-starf/#comments Sun, 17 Jan 2010 21:53:29 +0000 Benji http://benji.milkboys.org/?p=642 Hey  !!!

So at first, i have a Formspring, where you can ask me stuff, if you want to : Here.

In 2 weeks, i’m going 10 days to Ireland, in a family, and its gonna be great. In 2 weeks, the FINAL season of Lost is coming out, wich i’ve been waiting for really long. <3. That’s some good things. Especially when you know that these last few weeks were like the worst of my life. Anyway. Oh, and speaking all my night on skype with handsome boys is like awesome. <3. Even if i’m sleeping during classes xD

Oh, and I went to cinema this weekend, and i was two of my favorite films, ever.

1)Bright Star

2)Mr Nobody

(Even if i also recently discovered amazing films, like Old Boys ^^)

1/ BRIGHT STAR.

Its the sad story of John Keats, in his lasts years. He died when he was only 25, but the few poems he made are nowadays considered as some of the most beautiful romantic poems ever. Like Lord Byrons ones, for instance.

The  film shows us, his life, especially his love story with Fanny Brawne, and how he created wonderful poems;

Here’s one of my favorite one :

Bright Star

Bright star, would I were steadfast as thou art–
Not in lone splendour hung aloft the night
And watching, with eternal lids apart,
Like nature’s patient, sleepless Eremite,
The moving waters at their priestlike task
Of pure ablution round earth’s human shores,
Or gazing on the new soft-fallen mask
Of snow upon the mountains and the moors–
No–yet still stedfast, still unchangeable,
Pillow’d upon my fair love’s ripening breast,
To feel for ever its soft fall and swell,
Awake for ever in a sweet unrest,
Still, still to hear her tender-taken breath,
And so live ever–or else swoon to death.

The soundtrack is quite beautiful, with some violin parts, and the final scene of the film, in which while walking, Fanny Brawne say loudly this poem, is just amazing.

2/ MR. NOBODY.

Woaw. this film is just a masterpiece.  When i saw it, i was feeling like the director picked most of my favorite musics, and films, and mixed them the very same way i would have done it. Seriously, it’s just awesome. It tell how every lifes are possible untill you haven’t chosen anything in it : a boy’s parents are getting separated, he must choose wether he goes with his dad, or with his mom. As long as he haven’t decided, he will marry a lot of girls, he will die in differents way, ect…

And the end is incredible : i’ll just say “Zugzwang”. The soundtrack is quite beautiful too, mostly with musics that existed before, though.

Oh, and i’m still reading a lot of books in english >< I don’t have enough time to finish any of them tho ^^

I’m reading Cherub, book 10; the 39 clues, book 4, and also Harry Pooter 7 one more time ^^

See you !! <3

]]> http://benji.milkboys.org/2010/01/17/bright-starf/feed/ 1 http://benji.milkboys.org/2010/01/10/aeons/ http://benji.milkboys.org/2010/01/10/aeons/#comments Sun, 10 Jan 2010 01:49:49 +0000 Benji http://benji.milkboys.org/?p=635 I CANNNN’T WAIT TO SEE THE LOVELY BOOOONES !!!!

By the way, the ost of Where the Wild Things Are, is (like the film itself) AWESOME. Fantastic. As you may listen :

Anywayyyyy

as usual, some pictures i loooove, found on internet, (philiptrash’s blog, or others)

Oh, and  I might be a bit in love

Everything is more complicated than you think. You only see a tenth of what is true. There are a million little strings attached to every choice you make. You can destroy your life every time you choose. But maybe you won’t know for twenty years! And you may never ever trace it to its source. And you only get one chance to play it out. Just try and figure out your own divorce…

And they say there’s no fate, but there is, it’s what you create. And even though the world goes on for eons and eons, you are only here for a fraction of a fraction of a second. Most of your time is spent being dead, or not yet born. But while alive, you wait in vain wasting years for a phone call or a letter or a look from someone or something to make it all right, but it never comes. Or it seems to, but it doesn’t really.

So you spend you time in vague regret or vaguer hope that something good will come along, something to make you feel connected, something to make you feel cherished, something to make you feel loved. And the truth is is, I feel so angry! And the truth is, I feel so fucking sad! And the truth is, I’ve felt so fucking hurt for so fucking long and for just as long, I’ve been pretending I’m okay, just to get along!

I don’t know why. Maybe because…no one wants to hear about my misery…because they have their own.

Fuck everybody. Amen.

]]> http://benji.milkboys.org/2010/01/06/synecdoche-new-york/feed/ 2 http://benji.milkboys.org/2010/01/03/januarys-here/ http://benji.milkboys.org/2010/01/03/januarys-here/#comments Sun, 03 Jan 2010 17:59:34 +0000 Benji http://benji.milkboys.org/?p=607 I’m back in Lyon, in my boarding school. Woaw, it’s kinda weird to be there again. i dunno why but it makes me nostalgic about when i was still with josh :/ i’ll speak about it someday…

Anyway, i won’t be able to post for a bit, and it SUUUUUCKS :s

^^’

See you later guys, and enjoy those pics, still from there… (click on the pictures to see them bigger)

Bye !!!

A week ago, i found a blog that hosted my short film, and on this blog, some pictures were so cute, i had to repost them here to share them with you…<3

The blog is Philip’s one

This one is especially cute, despite the fact its not supposed to be romantic ^^

And finally i don’t rememer where this one is from, but i thought it was cute enough to be there :p

See You

And i also choosed 2 extra options : English  and …..English again

I now have 9 hours of english a week and i’m very happy ^^

We saw V for Vendetta (yay) and i told them all i knew about alan moore, watchmen, guy fawkes and it was so cool

Remember, remember, the 5th of november

“What you have are bullets and the hope that when your guns are empty I’m no longer standing, because if I am, you’ll all be dead before you’ve reloaded.”

Anyway i found some cute youtube channels, and lots of other stuff, and for the 1st time of my life i had a panic attack… it was awful…

I’m still very stressed, still have all my problems, but as i’m in a better class for me, maybe i’ll survive this year :p

Anyway , again, i missed you, and even if i can’t post often anymore,i’ll try to stay on internet as much as i can <3

By the way i read some english books recently : the wizard of Oz, Horribles Histories of England, and i’m beginning soon Alice in Wonderland

See you

Sorry I haven’t posted in a while because lots of sutff happend.

I’m still waiting for The Boy of my life, but some other things got better ^^

I’m now accepted in a boarding school in Lyon, and its quite great even if i’ll miss my friends and  family, i dunno…

Anyway in 5 days more stuff happend than in the last 2 month oO’

I went in lyon, saw the school, and my room wich is BIG, and i’ll post some pics of it when i’ll be in there, in a few days.

Big change : I won’t be able to have my laptop in the week (from monday to friday), but i’ll go check my mails every night on their crappy computers ^^and hopefully on my future Iphone (Wooohooo )…

So, i’ll post on my blog only on the week-ends, and i hope i’ll show you pics of the city, wich is absolutely beautiful

By the  way, Clint Eastwood will be there next week for a movie stuff, and i’ll go to see him

And another great new, i made my first film, wich maybe will be published in some places so i’m dead happy about that, i’ll post it on YouTube soon

Awww i found those pics sooo cuuuute its from a video game naed “little big planet” i think

That’s all for today :p i gotta prepare my luggage

Tomorrow i’m gonna see, with my parents, the “headmaster” of my school, and see what we’ll do. During this time, we’re gonna look for a boarding school. I’d like so much find one in Lyon… And if we do, we’ll change of school as fast as we can, because this situation is quite painful to me… And, for those who where wondering, i’m gonna see a psy in 3 days

So, sorry i don’t have anything to tell, i guess i don’t have any inspiration when i’m sad.

Sorry to post insignifiant post :p

I’ll post more pictures, and stuff like this soon

And thank you MirrorBoy ^o^

Benji