Benji's Adventure

Written yesterday, the 9/9/2009 at 09:09am.

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9:09am and 9 seconds; – une demi seconde. i mean, half a second. Teacher speaking right now. “Is the child the father of the Man?”. I’m thinking about what im doing. I’ve got some depression. Its growing, day after day. “Language isn’t done to comunicate. Explain it.” I screwed up last year. I’m beginnig to repeat those mistakes. Seeing some close family in depression, a sibling trying to commit suicide.

Now its worse and worse. And i’m not in the right class. Definitely not. I’m not ready enough. I don’t wanna grow up that fast.

“RAWWWWWRRR. It was a 2 meters tall guy. I knew i was dealing with an excessive guy.” What the hell is ths philosophy class about ?? This teacher tell us his life omg O_o.

Anyway. i don’t know what i’ll do in a week, in a year, in my life. And the worst thing is, i don’t care anymore. Living, dying… it’s just a matter of time anyway…

I think i’m in love. I think i may be in love. And now it’s the 9/9/09, 9:09am and 9 seconds, and “i find it kinda funny, i find it kinda sad, the dreams in wich i’m dyng are the best i’ve ever had”

If all was so easy, if you only loved people who loves you back, who know you back, with whom it’ll work, and not hurt you…

I stopped time for a second, but that’s all i can do.

9:09:09… 9:09:10… 9:09:11… 9:09:12…

That’s weird, still. 9/9/09 at 9;09;09am, that was the very exact time it was, when i realized this, watching my watch, in this philosophy class…

And then, before i can even realize it, it’s already gone.

Life goes on, and there is nothing Peter Pan can do about that.

O_o

Benjamin.